Our own way

Friday, September 18, 2009
11:20 AM

This Past few days, i don't know why i keep on crying. Well, it's not because that people write something in my tagged box, but just feel hurt when the closest person to me said that.The best is to cry in silent every night. Giving a fake smile everyday really hurts me alot. Headache came non-stop and my head keeps spinning like im riding a rollercoaster. I tried to study to let the bad feelings aside. Not knowing that I keep on replaying the same word people said it to me. If you were in my shoe too, you would feel stressed up. Well, somebody sees my photo and said, "What's with your smile? It's not like before." I just kept quiet. I know problems came to our lives non stop and go. And we try to settle it. But kite yang merancang, dier yang menetukan.Bestie came. Terribly on Sunday,when I was working I accidentally sprained my left leg vein. It's like 'Oh Gosh!' Very painful. One of my colleague mcm cekik darah. I was gonna punch that person but nvm, give her/him face. I won't hesitate to punch that person. Next day, didn't came to school coz my leg is still in pain.I'm just scared but whatever happens, I still need to let it go if I'm not that confident. Too many fans is like WTH to me. Just scared that I'll be hurt. So, it's better to let it go. Waiting for text is like waiting for 100 years. I just need a peace mind where I can really relax my mindset. I just need to concentrate on 4 things that is important in my life.Yesterday, 16 September 09, was a very tiring day. F1 briefing is like 1hr only. After that, went Tampines mall with Aisah and her friends, Hida and Dayah. Aisah bought for me a Coal grey 3/4 pants. Thank you so much AISAH!! After that, went for training and Singapore rains heavily. Met Aisyah Ima and Ahtin at 65 bustop. Took the bus together and drop off at Safra there. We're stucked at the bustop and met Nana Ozu and Haney. Well, friendly match vs. Temasek Poly yesterday really teaches me alot. I need to learn back some of the basics. Finishing, I and Nadia chit chat while walking towards Tampines MRT station. Reach home at 11.20++pm. (If i'm not wrong.) Another bad news came and it really like poke through my heart. Oh gosh! Why does this happened to us??? Too many things that you test. Too personal on this. So, yeah.. Till here then.